Super Tuesday

Today was my one year aniversery at ISO-lation-DISC. I hope to holy hell that the next year is a little smoother than the last.

My Favourite Blonde

PrincessNic starts gymnastics tomorrow. She seems very excited! Babymama keeps telling me I could be around more, do more, and that I am so lucky. She really knows how to get under my skin. Then the sucker punch came from KCGirl. She got mad because I didn't share what Babymama said to me. Do you ever just not want to talk about something? It will just pass, right? (Sigh)

Thought of the Day

Heavy is the head that wears the crown.

Pure & True

PrincessNic had her first soccer practice last week. She was... very enthusiastic... I think I was sick of soccer by the end of the night.

"On Your Toes"

KCGirl and I also looked at a new place this weekend. I have to admit that I am nervous about the whole ordeal. My last experiment with "co-habitation" ended... in drama (gasp).

Oh, by the way... I am totally addicted to iTunes. How on earth did I live before? And why didn't you mofo's tell me to get with it!

Thought of the Day
Two households both alike in dignity...

Monday Night Raw

Oh Mondays! How I loathe thee!

I can't decide if I would like use my vacation days to take every Monday off or Fridays.

Tough choice!

Thought of the Day
Is the "X" a kiss and the "O" a hug or vice-versa?

Take Me Away

Hello 2008...
What should I say?

Work is crazy! They are hiring another full-time person. I don't really know how to take this. I can't do the job well enough by myself? Or just believe them when they say that they think it is just too much for one person. I've asked how our responsibilities will be divided up but I can't really get a straight answer. In response, I've started putting my resume out there. I've had two companies call me back (what a good feeling!). I don't really want to change jobs but it would be nice to get better benefits. Maybe I could even get PricenessNic insurance (what a concept)...

Thought of the Day
Please don't stop the music...

The Good... Bad... and Ugly...

Today is the last day of 2007. What a wild ride this year has been! I have been through just about everything in the last 52 weeks. Last year I had a great relaxing evening at home. This year I anticipate a bit more... drunkeness (is that even a word?)

The Good: I sound Super-Sappy but I have found someone!
The Bad: I think BestFriend and I are more distant than ever. I guess it is just a natural progression of life.
The Ugly: I hurt someone I cared for a lot.

Thought of the Day:
Goodbye 2007... Hello 2008...

The 24 1/2 Century!

I can no longer say I am the last person on the face of this earth that doesn't have an Ipod. (Thanks Dad!)

I hope all of you had a great long holiday weekend! I know I did!
I did not want to go to work to this morning. I just wanted to roll over and find my nook.

Thought of the Day
I can't remember to forget you...

Holiday Spirit

I am so excited for the future. I don't know if this drama queen has ever said that before. I am actually looking forward to "the next step".

Is it May yet?

Thought of the Day
Please come home for Christmas...

One Year Later...

As I was driving to work this morning I got to thinking... (dangerous I know...)
This time last year I had just been "let go" from Inatek. What a roller-coaster of a year!
I can't believe all the changes that have taken place this year.

I wonder if every year will be so... drama-full.

Thought of the Day
No whats...

Early Bird...

For the last two days have come in to work at 6:30. Do you know what the world looks like at 6:30? Dark... D-A-R-K.

I spoke with Controller yesterday about getting a raise. She seems really receptive to the idea but we are talking about mo' money and she mentions that BK and AK didn't know if they wanted to keep me on after Judy left. Apparently, I made too many "mistakes" and wasn't very good.

What???!!!!

You have got to be kidding... I really don't want to be here now. I just feel really stoopid. I don't even know where to start. I applied for like 6 jobs last night in a fit of rage.

Thought of the Day
I wish I could tell you... you are worse now than you were when you were with Meg.

The Grind

What a whirlwind of a weekend...

I got PrincessNic on Friday and we sat down to watch a little Toy Story. Classic...

KCGirl came up Saturday morning and the three of us went to the boy's soccer party. I realized something while there. I can't relate to anything they are talking about. What the fuck? When we were not talking about soccer I sat in silence... I wish I could small talk...

So we dragged ourselves away and carved some pumpkins. They look pretty good (dusting off shoulder)

Spooky, huh?

Today was pretty lazy. I mowed the yard this morning... it was cold! I thought I was going to have to scoop snow off the driveway before I was done mowing.

What happened to this global warming business? When is it going to start warming!?

Thought of the Day

Is Mars a thing that is cold?

Case of the Mondays...

It must suck to be Monday...
Monday is like that kid at school that even the nerds picked on.

I have been thinking a lot about how we got screwed into this 5 day work-week. I mean who thought... 5 days of work 2 days off yeah that sounds fair! Why not 4 and 3? Who made this choice that the rest of us now have to live with? There seems to be no rationale behind it?

If I had a time machine... I would go back and kill this man. Fuck Hitler, Stalin, and Nerdy Monday Kid... 5-day-work-week-guy I am coming after you!

Thought of the Day
Set free me why don't you
get out my life why don't you
Cause you don't really love me, no
You just keep me hanging on

Uni-Polar

I can't figure out what is going on...

I am not happy. I am not happy with anything right now. I hate being at our new place. I resent soccer right now. Fucking ISO-altion-DISC is the only place I feel happy... now isn't that some fucked up shit!

What is different? More and more often I feel the anger start to consume me but there is nothing I can do about it. The harder I fight the more pissed off I get.

I can't just keep to myself because then I am being "passive-aggressive".

Thought of the Day
... and the reason is you...

New Title... Same BS...

Seems like forever has pasted since I wrote last...

I am back to being a resident of Nebraska. I really like our new big house. I think once we get unpacked it will be great.

I got crazy sick... Strep C and a Staff infection at the same time. I don't know what that means but apparently it was bad. I had to miss a whole week of work... I think the size of my pay-cheque may make me sick again.

Speaking of ISO-ation-DISC, we have a new controller (No nickname... yet). She is really nice and she has been trying to fix the things that I hate about my job. I am really excited.

KCGirl is coming up this weekend. She is excited to see the new place.

PricessNic has been in beautiful Wisconsin for two weeks with Grandma. I guess she is pretty spoiled now. I have to go and get her on Sunday. She be a lovely trip...

Thought of the Day
Good things are coming to you in due course of time.

Karma's a...

What a drama-ful last couple of days. I don't really know where to start. KCGirl and I are no longer "us". That is a pretty big revelation. She found out that GreenHoodie and I had slept together. Pretty ironic... I let someone who I knew I didn't want to be with ruin something I was was sure about. There are a lot of people who will say this is just par for the course with me. I deserve all the pain I have caused and then some. I will never know what is like to feel that kind of pain.

BestFriend says I should head down there... fight! I would like another chance but I honestly don't think I deserve one. I can't promise that it won't happen again. I wish I could...


Thought of the Day
I will never know what it is like to date me.

Day One

Tomorrow will the first day in the Post-Judy era. His last day was Friday... and he left early. Typical for Judy. I think everyone is glad he is gone. It was kinda sad. I hope when I leave it is not like that. I have to talk to Barb about getting my Internet back... and getting a raise.

I guess we'll see how the new era goes. Wish me luck...

Thought of the Day
Oh, so I drank one
It became four
And when I fell on the floor
......I drank more

Big Man

Michael gave is two weeks today. Not a huge surprise but it means that I am going to be it.

I am sooooo asking for my Internet back!

Thought of the Day
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again

Clock Slavery

Boy o' boy... I am crazy bored! I have been sitting at my desk for two hours now with NOTHING to do! I wish I could just leave but I need the money. I am a slave to the clock! Damn ISO-lation-DISC...

Soccer started this week. The girls have their first game tonight. I hope it goes well. We have 5 new girls that really give us alot of potential. The boys have their first game tomorrow. I am really excited to see how both teams play.

I have still not heard back from Omni. I hate this part. I took the time to come down there twice and they can't give me a call to let me know... something anything! I presented two weeks ago. I guess at this point I am assuming the worst.

Blah blah blah yadaa yadaa yadaa...

Thought of the Day
I tear my heart open... just to feel...

Out of Sight...

Well... First off... Babymama has not mentioned moving anymore. So either she is laying low or it was just another tall tale. I guess only time will tell. Hopefully, it will just be like everything in her life... alot of talk.

I got a call from Omni. They have not made a choice yet. They hope to know by Wednesday. I am not feeling so confident at this point. I just feel like... if it was me they would have called by now. I guess I don't know what goes on behind-the-scenes.

BestFriend and I have been looking for a new place to call home. It has been... slow.

Thought of the Day
... you either do or you don't...

The Swipe

Spoke with Babymama on Friday. She mentioned the fact that she is thinking about moving to Texas. I don't know if I am supposed to take her serious.

More to come later...

Disconnected

I am sitting here in KC and everyone is getting ready to go out for the night and I realized I am completed isolated from "my" world. I have this feeling that something is going on back home and when I get back "wham" I am going to be stunned to find everything has changed. Should I feel like this? Why am I always so torn up about my actions? July is just a bad month for me. What is up with that!?

It's not paranoia if they are actually out to get you. I think someone smart (or constantly high) said that...

I have my call back on Monday. I am very excited! I hope everything goes well.

Thought of the Day
I hope you are having a good weekend...