Early Bird...

For the last two days have come in to work at 6:30. Do you know what the world looks like at 6:30? Dark... D-A-R-K.

I spoke with Controller yesterday about getting a raise. She seems really receptive to the idea but we are talking about mo' money and she mentions that BK and AK didn't know if they wanted to keep me on after Judy left. Apparently, I made too many "mistakes" and wasn't very good.

What???!!!!

You have got to be kidding... I really don't want to be here now. I just feel really stoopid. I don't even know where to start. I applied for like 6 jobs last night in a fit of rage.

Thought of the Day
I wish I could tell you... you are worse now than you were when you were with Meg.

The Grind

What a whirlwind of a weekend...

I got PrincessNic on Friday and we sat down to watch a little Toy Story. Classic...

KCGirl came up Saturday morning and the three of us went to the boy's soccer party. I realized something while there. I can't relate to anything they are talking about. What the fuck? When we were not talking about soccer I sat in silence... I wish I could small talk...

So we dragged ourselves away and carved some pumpkins. They look pretty good (dusting off shoulder)

Spooky, huh?

Today was pretty lazy. I mowed the yard this morning... it was cold! I thought I was going to have to scoop snow off the driveway before I was done mowing.

What happened to this global warming business? When is it going to start warming!?

Thought of the Day

Is Mars a thing that is cold?

Case of the Mondays...

It must suck to be Monday...
Monday is like that kid at school that even the nerds picked on.

I have been thinking a lot about how we got screwed into this 5 day work-week. I mean who thought... 5 days of work 2 days off yeah that sounds fair! Why not 4 and 3? Who made this choice that the rest of us now have to live with? There seems to be no rationale behind it?

If I had a time machine... I would go back and kill this man. Fuck Hitler, Stalin, and Nerdy Monday Kid... 5-day-work-week-guy I am coming after you!

Thought of the Day
Set free me why don't you
get out my life why don't you
Cause you don't really love me, no
You just keep me hanging on

Uni-Polar

I can't figure out what is going on...

I am not happy. I am not happy with anything right now. I hate being at our new place. I resent soccer right now. Fucking ISO-altion-DISC is the only place I feel happy... now isn't that some fucked up shit!

What is different? More and more often I feel the anger start to consume me but there is nothing I can do about it. The harder I fight the more pissed off I get.

I can't just keep to myself because then I am being "passive-aggressive".

Thought of the Day
... and the reason is you...

New Title... Same BS...

Seems like forever has pasted since I wrote last...

I am back to being a resident of Nebraska. I really like our new big house. I think once we get unpacked it will be great.

I got crazy sick... Strep C and a Staff infection at the same time. I don't know what that means but apparently it was bad. I had to miss a whole week of work... I think the size of my pay-cheque may make me sick again.

Speaking of ISO-ation-DISC, we have a new controller (No nickname... yet). She is really nice and she has been trying to fix the things that I hate about my job. I am really excited.

KCGirl is coming up this weekend. She is excited to see the new place.

PricessNic has been in beautiful Wisconsin for two weeks with Grandma. I guess she is pretty spoiled now. I have to go and get her on Sunday. She be a lovely trip...

Thought of the Day
Good things are coming to you in due course of time.

Karma's a...

What a drama-ful last couple of days. I don't really know where to start. KCGirl and I are no longer "us". That is a pretty big revelation. She found out that GreenHoodie and I had slept together. Pretty ironic... I let someone who I knew I didn't want to be with ruin something I was was sure about. There are a lot of people who will say this is just par for the course with me. I deserve all the pain I have caused and then some. I will never know what is like to feel that kind of pain.

BestFriend says I should head down there... fight! I would like another chance but I honestly don't think I deserve one. I can't promise that it won't happen again. I wish I could...


Thought of the Day
I will never know what it is like to date me.

Day One

Tomorrow will the first day in the Post-Judy era. His last day was Friday... and he left early. Typical for Judy. I think everyone is glad he is gone. It was kinda sad. I hope when I leave it is not like that. I have to talk to Barb about getting my Internet back... and getting a raise.

I guess we'll see how the new era goes. Wish me luck...

Thought of the Day
Oh, so I drank one
It became four
And when I fell on the floor
......I drank more

Big Man

Michael gave is two weeks today. Not a huge surprise but it means that I am going to be it.

I am sooooo asking for my Internet back!

Thought of the Day
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again

Clock Slavery

Boy o' boy... I am crazy bored! I have been sitting at my desk for two hours now with NOTHING to do! I wish I could just leave but I need the money. I am a slave to the clock! Damn ISO-lation-DISC...

Soccer started this week. The girls have their first game tonight. I hope it goes well. We have 5 new girls that really give us alot of potential. The boys have their first game tomorrow. I am really excited to see how both teams play.

I have still not heard back from Omni. I hate this part. I took the time to come down there twice and they can't give me a call to let me know... something anything! I presented two weeks ago. I guess at this point I am assuming the worst.

Blah blah blah yadaa yadaa yadaa...

Thought of the Day
I tear my heart open... just to feel...

Out of Sight...

Well... First off... Babymama has not mentioned moving anymore. So either she is laying low or it was just another tall tale. I guess only time will tell. Hopefully, it will just be like everything in her life... alot of talk.

I got a call from Omni. They have not made a choice yet. They hope to know by Wednesday. I am not feeling so confident at this point. I just feel like... if it was me they would have called by now. I guess I don't know what goes on behind-the-scenes.

BestFriend and I have been looking for a new place to call home. It has been... slow.

Thought of the Day
... you either do or you don't...

The Swipe

Spoke with Babymama on Friday. She mentioned the fact that she is thinking about moving to Texas. I don't know if I am supposed to take her serious.

More to come later...

Disconnected

I am sitting here in KC and everyone is getting ready to go out for the night and I realized I am completed isolated from "my" world. I have this feeling that something is going on back home and when I get back "wham" I am going to be stunned to find everything has changed. Should I feel like this? Why am I always so torn up about my actions? July is just a bad month for me. What is up with that!?

It's not paranoia if they are actually out to get you. I think someone smart (or constantly high) said that...

I have my call back on Monday. I am very excited! I hope everything goes well.

Thought of the Day
I hope you are having a good weekend...

The Offer

I got the most AMAZING voicemail the other day. I got a call from a job I interviewed for last summer. I had made it into the final 3 candidates but they chose someone else. Apparently, they have another opening and they want me to come in and interview! This is like my dream job! I should get a call back on Tuesday!

I have been super stressed lately...

I feel like I work constantly but I don't have any money! I am trying to get all my credit cards paid off (this Drama Queen kinda likes to shop!) but I have to start paying off student loans.

PrincessNic and I have been lounging around the pool a lot lately. We have both noticed that we have some strange neighbors.

Thought of the Day
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright

Birthday Weekend

In 3 hours, this Drama Queen will be on the wrong side of 30. No... not thirty yet... 26! Arg!!!!!

Friday night the Quadpod hit O-Town. KCGirl and I met up with Kiki and BestFriend at the Upstream. Then we went to Myth, the new 'Tini bar downtown. It had great atmosphere. Very laid back... very cool...

I did get a very interesting phone call from the BestFriend of GreenHoodie while at Myth. She wanted to know who gave the best head, KCGirl or GreenHoodie. I don't really understand the obession...

Today, KCGirl and I went to the pool with PrincessNic. It was a great afternoon hangin' with all the hot mommies... grrr!

Thought of the Day
They say I gotta change my evil ways
And I'm workin hard at it every day but
No matter what I do I seem to make the same mistakes that I'm tryin not to

Pure Joy

This is what it is all about right here... My beautiful girl having the time of her life. All the other bullshit just melts away.

Look ma' no hands...

Have a good weekend everyone!

PS

Happy Fathers Day!!!!!

My third one was pretty good. PrincessNic and I made blueberry pancakes for breakfast (I cooked... she ate). We went down to the pool here at the apartment. She was really apprehensive about going in. So we sat in the lounge chairs (like the Divas we are) and peered over our sunglasses at people. Then we decided it was time to give the water a chance so we sat on the side and splashed around (while leering at the people in the pool). Then... PrincessNic wanted to jump in the pool. So of course I had to catch her and catch her I did... for an hour! Oh my poor arms!

Game Time

I just got home from a game of soccer. It felt great to get out and play. It was a lot of fun! We lost 3-2 but it was a great game. I guess I must have played ok since they invited me back next week.

This week has been tryouts. Arg! Didn't I spend all winter trying to get rid of these damn things. You want to see some drama... go hang out with soccer parents during tryout times! My life pales in comparison to this drama!

Thought of the Day
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down...

Summer-time

What a whirlwind of a week... I think I have run the gamut of emotion.
KCGirl is now... in KC. Her and Pharma sound exactly like BestFriend and I. It is hilirious!
The Tripod has decided on our new Tuesday-night-karaoke-outing-locale. It could be the coolest bar in the world (... or at least CB).
GreenHoodie and I seem to be doing ok. I hope that there are no regrets about what is going on. That's probably too much to ask. I've already asked the world.

Thought of the Day
If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting...

The Gentleman's Game

BestFriend, Kiki, and I played a round of golf this afternoon. It was my first round ever! I only lost two balls. It was so exciting! It was such a nice relaxing afternoon. When I turn Pro and am chatting with Tiger I'll be able to say this was the start... BAHAAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!

Thought of the Day
Fore!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pre-Destination

This Drama Queen has a confession to make. I believe in fate. How odd, right? I believe everything happens for a reason. Perhaps that's just me grasping to identify patterns in an infinitely random universe.

Thought of the Day
What is your reason...